Today my best friend, my beloved, my favorite, celebrates another year of life and I celebrate the gift he is to me, to our family. I continue to stand amazed at how God blessed me with this man and how thankful I am for the chance to live life with him.
I’ve shared many times (maybe too many) about how this year has been defined by changes, all good changes, but several big changes. And those changes had some big effects on each of us individually and on our marriage. Matt walked with me through a deep valley of depression the likes of which I hadn’t seen in well over a decade, maybe since before we met. I know he became discouraged when he felt there was nothing he could do to help me, but he never gave up and has been more than supportive as I’ve recovered.
I watched as people who never had an opinion before suddenly had loud and significant opinions about our family life and his work schedule and the choices we make. And he stood firm, recognizing that the path God is leading us down is no ordinary path and we may be misunderstood and it may be lonely, but with God we are where we should be.
And this year our marriage took a beating that I don’t feel like we’ve had since the first year we were married (the year that both of us thought we had made a horrible mistake and wished there was a way out). It has been a long, hard year for our marriage, but by God’s grace, we have held on to Him and to each other, never giving up hope that things will one day get better, get back to where they were.
And as our lives start to settle down, just a little, and we find this “new normal” I see glimpses of us again. But even if things don’t ever get back to what we once were (even though I’m sure they will), there’s still no one else I’d rather do life with, no one else better suited for me, no one else I want to grow old with. And I believe we will laugh at the crazy days we’ve come through and we will laugh at the days to come, because of the Hope that lives in us.
For His Glory,