Last Friday, I was angry. I was angry about my purse. I was angry about how life was going. Our insurance was willing to cover the loss, but it wasn’t worth filing the claim with what it would do to our rates. I appealed to the buyer’s protection with our credit card; they wouldn’t cover theft from a car. I felt like everything was going wrong. And I was mad. I worked my way through that anger, enjoyed a relaxing drive and laughing with my husband, and then danced the night away with friends. By Saturday, my soul was at rest. I had reached a point of accepting where things were at in life and was “claiming” a drama-free week for our family. And I still had hope for my purse and wallet. In the back of my mind my only thought was, maybe none of these other avenues are working because God is going to give it back to me.
In spite of my “claim” for a drama-free week, Monday morning started with one of our favorite red glass lamps being shattered while the children built a fort on the couch. One of those mother moments when I looked and thought, This is a really bad idea. And then I also thought, No, Sara, let them do this. Say yes. So I let them and went upstairs for a bit. And then I heard the shattering thud and knew instantly what had happened. 😦 So, before lunchtime I had given up my hopes for drama-free this week.
Tuesday morning, Matt found himself in a ditch in his truck. *sigh* I laughed. I couldn’t help myself. He was fine, just terribly inconvenienced, and I couldn’t help but laugh. So, so ridiculous it was.
So Tuesday afternoon when the city services truck stopped in front of my house I honestly wondered what the next thing would be. I wondered if something had happened with our payment and now our water was being turned off. It just seemed like the next ridiculous occurrence in this series of unfortunate events.
The men in the truck sat out there a bit, so I went on and forgot about them, until one of them came to my door. “I’m looking for Sara,” he said. “I’m she,” I responded. “Did you lose a purse?” he asked.
I gasped and my eyes had to be as large as saucers and I replied, “Did you find my purse?!!?”
He led me out to his truck and there it was sitting in the back, dirty and crumpled, but completely intact with my wallet inside. I hugged him. I couldn’t help it. I told him I had been praying for it and that my friends had and that he had made my day.
I asked him where he found it. He said it was in a trash can at a local park, about two miles north of where my purse was stolen. He said they find them there all the time.
The smell on the purse is indescribable. I took it to a local cleaner’s yesterday because I couldn’t even bear to have it on my front porch. As best I can tell, the thief only took my money. Every last penny was gone out of my wallet, but nearly everything else was there. A few random items are missing from my purse, but my guess is that they fell out in the trash can because it’s silly things like lip gloss and fingernail clippers.
I knew my money was gone as soon as the purse went missing. All I asked of the Lord was that I could have the purse and wallet back. I didn’t care about any of the rest of it. I have seen God in so many little details throughout my seventeen year walk with Him that I never doubted His ability to bring that purse back, if He was willing. (And after all this, I’m also confident He can get the smell out of it! 🙂 )
Matt and I have been asking ourselves for weeks, but especially the past several days, Is this God? Is this Satan? What are we supposed to be learning? And those thoughts continued to roll through my head as I processed the excitement of the afternoon. What was God saying by giving this back? Had we done something right? What was it?
As I drove along, my soul knew it wasn’t anything we had done. It was just God. He gave it back because He’s God and He can and He chose to. It’s grace. Simply grace. And really it’s His grace that leads us through the trials that bring us to our knees. For if grace means undeserved gift, then the trials of life that make us more like His Son are surely also grace. It’s all grace. Every moment. Every breath.
And I’m so thankful for His endlessly abundant grace and His concern for the details of this day-to-day life. Oh, how deep is His love for us!
For His Glory ~