Downer Warning: It’s been a week, and I am just starting to really “feel” the events today. This could be a very crabby post. Feel free to flee now, or read on at your own risk. 😮
On Wednesday of this week, I had my SUV broken into and my purse stolen. My brand new purse and wallet that I had only had for one month. Exactly.one.month. On a day that started out well and in the middle of what I hoped was going to be a drama-free week, everything was turned on its side. I tried to do school with the girls, but they were clearly disturbed by what had happened and I was so distracted by phone calls to be made and trying to find somewhere to take my window-missing truck before it started to rain, we ended up only getting about half of our stuff done. I spent most of the day numb and somewhat disoriented. Thursday felt about the same.
Today I’m just mad. I’m mad that my whole week got jacked up by someone’s selfishness. I’m mad that everything cost just enough to be a giant nuisance, but probably not enough to make it worth submitting to insurance. I’m mad that we haven’t even gotten the credit card bill for the dang purse yet and it’s already gone. I’m mad that Matt had to take money out of savings so that I could go get groceries (because I was trying to be “good” and use cash and that was stolen). I’m mad that I had to put groceries back today because I had to save money to go replace my driver’s license. I’m mad that I have to make a bunch of phone calls this afternoon to change our auto-pay information from our checking account, because we had to open a new one. I’m mad that when I went to order new checks today, I got all the way through and realized I had no way to pay for them online. I’m mad at the inconvenience it is causing Matt to be without any of his business credit cards for the next couple of weeks.
None of this is a big deal. It really isn’t. But it’s been an entire summer of this.kind.of.stuff. Unplanned, unbudgeted inconveniences. Matt and I laid in bed on Wednesday night and began to count up how many unexpected expenses we’ve had just this summer:
- my truck window
- my purse, wallet, and cash
- his truck totaled
- flat tire on his truck led to getting four new tires
- two weed whips gone
- one lawn mower dead
- tool theft
- roof repairs
- broken rear hatch handle on my truck
- broken antenna (not a cheap fix)
- both air conditioning units at the house needing repairs
- two speeding tickets
There were a few more, but they’re not coming to mind. Needless to say, we’re worn down by the financial blood bath that this summer has been.
On the other hand, God has been more than generous with us this year. It’s been a good year for the business and He’s been prompting Matt to work hard on saving money. It’s just that Matt thought he was saving for the future, not for right now to just replace all our broken or stolen stuff.
I know God hasn’t changed. I know He is still good. I cling to His faithfulness and His promise to carry me. There is still much to be thankful for and at least one beautiful story has come out of this, which I will share on Monday. But today I feel a little like I’m going insane. I told a friend today that I’m not even sure if this is Biblical, but I’m just going to go ahead and start “claiming” a drama-free week next week. In Jesus name.
Now that I have written all of this down and looked back through it, I’m actually laughing. It’s all just so ridiculous. I wonder what could be next?!?!
Have a fabulous weekend, friends. I’m sure going to try to here!
Only By His Grace ~