She wrestles through the weekend with thoughts of inadequacy, fear, and restlessness. Tears fall and doubts creep in. And on a Tuesday she decides to call it what it is: a battle for her heart and mind.
Satan’s game is to make us want what we don’t have, to make what we have never look like enough, and to make us doubt everything we believe, so she calls him on his dirty tactics. If we stay at home, we want to have a mission outside the home. If we are out in the workforce, we wish we could be home with our families. When our children are young we long for them to grow up and become more independent. When they grow up we miss the simple days of early childhood and naps and Nick Jr. When marriage is rocky we wish for the smooth everyday type days. When marriage is mundane we wish for excitement. When we are alone, we wish for more friends. When we are surrounded by others, we long to be alone. And it’s true what they say: Jealousy comes from counting someone else’s blessings instead of our own.
So she calls foul and she sets her eyes on Truth. And she plays music and she puts words in her heart. And she knows that Satan knows her weak spot and he will be back but she knows every time she fights and rises again, she rises a little stronger.
When Jesus sets me free, the freedom is also eternally done, for no chain can ever shackle me again. Once the Master says to me, ‘Prisoner, I have freed you,’ it is done forever. Satan may plot to enslave me, but ‘if God is for [me], who can be against [me]?’ (Romans 8:31) – ‘Whom shall I fear?’ (Psalm 27:1). The world with its temptations may seek to ensnare me, but ‘greater is he’ (I John 4:4) who is for me than all those combined who are against me. The scheming of my own deceitful heart may harass and annoy me, but ‘he who began a good work in [me] will carry it on to completion’ (Philippins 1:6).
Look Unto Me, Spurgeon, November 25
It’s not who you are that holds you back, it’s who you think you’re not.
For His Glory ~