Eight

A year ago, I wrote about Chandler and the completely unique and wonderful child she is and how God has used her in our lives.  And while God often uses her to remind me just how much I need Him, I give thanks for her today.  I give thanks for her tender heart and her quick wit, for her strength and determination, for her generosity and for the incredible way God will use her someday, and for the eight years He has so graciously given us so far.

 

And I continue to count the gifts He gives each day…..

1270.  husbands and daddies

1271.  reaching the breaking point

1272.  finding balance and peace again

1273.  first horse show

1274.  a really good Saturday

1275.  home study interview

1276.  third borns

1277.  another turning eight

Praying you are open to the gifts He gives this week.

For His Glory ~

~ Sara

Summertime

Well, I’m at least a month late on this post, but (as I’ve said many times) this has been one of the weirdest summers I can remember.  After a major slight breakdown yesterday, I feel like we’ve made it over the hump and I am determined to slow down and enjoy the next few weeks with my kids.  I’m clearing our July schedules of anything and everything I possibly can and we are going to cram as much fun into six weeks as humanly possible.

So, all that said, here is our “Summer Fun List” –

  • Have friends over (they have a list of about 12 different girls)
  • Camping (probably going to have to wait until fall for that one)
  • Splash parks
  • The cabin in Texas (weren’t we just there? surely that counts.)
  • Parks
  • Zoos
  • Bike rides
  • Moon Marble Company
  • Discovery Center
  • Shopping at the mall
  • Get a gerbil (that’s Grace’s – shoot me now, please)
  • Take Coco for walks

Seems reasonable enough, except maybe the camping and the cabin.  I’ll report back on how we did in the fall.

Next up, my Summer Reading List.  It’s long (though not as long as last year; okay, maybe it is as long as last year’s) and I’m allowing myself into the fall for it, too.  Here goes:

  • Raising Maidens of Virtue by Stacy McDonald
    • This gift was given to me to read.  I will be honest, I have some cautions about Vision Forum and their strong patriarchal leanings, but it looks like it addresses some things that we want to work on with the girls, so I am reading through it this summer to determine if it is something we should go through together in the fall.
  • The Gift of Good Manners by Peggy Post & Cindy Post Senning
    • This was on last summer’s list and I still haven’t gotten to it.  It should probably be a higher priority than it is; we need help.  😉
  • Choosing to See by Mary Beth Chapman
    • Because I really need to cry more than I already do.
  • The Whole Life Adoption Book by Jayne Schooler
    • This one and the two that follow have all been recommended reading as we navigate the adoption process.  I’m looking forward to getting into them soon.
  • Adopted for Life by Russell Moore
  • Praying Through Your Adoption by Michelle Cervone Scott
  • The Winter of Our Disconnect by Susan Maushart
    • I’m really intrigued by this one!
  • Counterfeit Gods by Timothy Keller
    • We’re going through this right now in Sunday school.  Good stuff.
  • The Pursuit of God by A.W. Tozer
    • Read this first in college, now going through it again with my small group ladies.  Looking forward to seeing what I take away from it so many years later.
  • The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks
    • One of my favorite movies ever.  I was at a book sale and one of the ladies there convinced me that it is so much better than the movie and what did I have to lose for a buck?  Should be good poolside reading, if I can ever find the time to sit poolside.  😉
  • Understanding Exposure by Bryan Petereson
    • The next three books are a result of me finally being fed up with not fully understanding my camera.  These are library books, so I’m trying to get through them first, but I can only read about shutter speeds and f-stops for so long before my brain goes numb.
  • Understanding Composition by Steve Mulligan
  • Digital SLR Cameras and Photography for Dummies by David Busch

Well, that’s it.  I’ve got my work cut out for me!

What about you?  What fun things are you hoping to do with your kids this summer?  Any good books you’re hoping to read?

Praying you are able to slow down and enjoy the gift of life today!

For His Glory ~

~ Sara

Adoption Update

It’s June…..nearly the end of it, in fact!  June 1 marked our GO date for beginning the paper chase that is an adoption.  We’ve been busy gathering the details of our life into one green box that resides on top of our refrigerator.  I would guess that we have 1/3 to 1/2 of what we need gathered.  We had our psychological evaluations last week where we were (surprise, surprise!) deemed of sound mind to parent an adopted child.  Tomorrow we go downtown to get fingerprinted and get our police clearance reports.  We’ve sent in Child Abuse Registry clearance forms on ourselves and our oldest child (because she’s over 10).  We’ve preyed on friends to write reference letters on our behalf.  On Sunday we have our first home study visit.  Sometime in July we have our physicals and blood work done.  I’ve ordered ridiculously expensive birth certificate copies from North Carolina (where Matt was born) and gone downtown to pick up mine as well as our marriage certificate.  There’s much more to be done, but I am fully confident we will have everything gathered by the end of July, if not before.

In the meantime, we (mostly Matt) have been busy working on the house that we are planning to sell to help fund this process.  About a month ago we had a painting party at the property that has been named the Amania House.  I commissioned the girls (and their friends) to take pictures, so we have a lot of photos of them and their friends and a few of people working (mostly their back sides).  😉

Front - mid-progress

Casey & Patrick rockin' the south side

Front porch - we ditched the "Passover" swath on the front door and ended up painting it black.

Chandler & Lauren

Beans rockin' the north side

My father-in-law (and I'm realizing I need to teach my girls how to change the date in their camera - it was not June 27, 2008)

Nikki helping roll out the living room

More north side action

This is the girls immortalizing Ellie's helpful nature.

Me. Without make up. Just keepin' it real.

Hannah rollin' in the kitchen.

More Lauren & Chandler

Jazz Hands!

My mother-in-law helping with the yard

Lucy

Emma

Ellie finally helping

Brogan

Grace

I'm not quite sure what they were doing under that shrub for so long, but we have a lot of pictures like this. (And that dumb date stamp is starting to drive me nuts.)

More of Nikki rolling

Mel cutting in

Kerri & Angee working on the second floor

Dick working in the dining room. He claimed no one wanted to help him.

Rex cutting in. Everyone was thankful for the cutters-in!

The breakfast and lunch buffets.

Ben still working hard.

Me supervising.

Matt & Brian chatting it up while Matt paints the trim

Brogan (this shot was too cute not to include)

We are so thankful to the many friends who came out to lend a hand and show their support.  We are also so blessed by the generosity and encouragement of so many as we walk this road.  It is a gift to see how God does all the work and does amazing things when we simply say “yes” and trust Him.

Joy Giving

JOY. 

It’s the gift I want to give my children, my family.  It’s the legacy I want to leave.  I want to break my history of and bent toward sadness and melancholy and fill our home with peace, joy, love.  I want to be who God made me and I want to glorify Him with a joyful heart.

Rejoice always,  pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

This is His will: to give thanks, to rejoice always.  And the strength to do so comes when we pray without ceasing.  Prayers of thanks, prayers for help, prayers for grace, for peace, for hope.  A life of joy flows from a life of prayer and thanksgiving.  May this be the life I live.

1259.  swimming with friends

1260.  really cool VBS

1261.  hard choices

1262.  a broken leg and nothing worse

1263.  Symphony in the Flint Hills

1264.  slowing down again

1265.  baby steps toward bringing her home

1266.  generosity of others

1267.  splash pads and mexican food

1268.  spontaneous daddies and a wonderfully fun Father’s Day

1269.  joy…joy…joy!

May you find joy in His presence this week, my friends!

~ Sara

*photos from a beautiful night with dear friends at the Symphony in the Flint Hills

Ballerinas – 2011 Edition

The girls’ spring recital was a few weeks ago.  They all worked so hard this year and looked so lovely performing.  I am proud of their hard work and watching their delight on performance nights makes all the crazy running around worth it.

I ignored my own usual advice, and did not take pictures at home before the recital.  I thought – we’re older now, they’ll be fine after the recital!  I was wrong.  They were all tired and an emotional mess.  So, next year, it’s back to pre-recital photo ops. 

Ellie

Emma - a Woodland Fairy in Snow White

Grace - a Mirror in Snow White

Here’s to a refreshing summer break from pink fluff and pointe shoes and looking forward to another wonderful year of watching them grow in gracefulness.

~ Sara

Grateful Monday

I’ll be honest, it’s been a day.  A Monday.  I likely should have practiced what I’ve preached and started my day with the giving of thanks.  Perhaps pausing in this moment will redirect my thoughts as we go into the evening hours.

In Streams recently I read…

Our praise will bring forth “water…in the wilderness and streams in the desert” (Isaiah 35:6), while complaining will only bring judgment.  Even prayer by itself may fail to reach the fountain of blessings.

Nothing pleases the Lord as much as praise.  There is no greater evidence of faith than the virtue of genuine thanksgiving.  Are you praising God enough?  Are you thanking Him for the countless blessings He has bestowed on you?  Are you boldly praising Him even for the trials in your life, which are actually blessings in disguise?  And have you learned to praise Him in advance for answers yet to come?

~ Streams in the Desert, May 26

Am I praising Him for Mondays and head aches and irritations?  Am I praising Him for phone calls and paperwork and bills?  I will praise Him for these things and for the promise of a new day and renewed minds, for provision, for grace, and for meeting every.single.need.  He is faithful and He is worthy of my praise.

 

1238.  girls playing in rain

1239.  youngest riding a bicycle

1240.  sleeping in (just a bit) on a Thursday

1241.  celebrations and graduations

1242.  interrupted date night

1243.  incredible hail

1244.  time on the porch

1245.  trust, faith

1246.  a perfect day for painting

1247.  support from friends

1248.  being dinner guests

1249.  no tears at swim lessons

1250.  whole house clean

1251.  finishing a book

1252.  last training run

1253.  Hospital Hill 10k!

1254.  a great friend to run it with

1255.  denim that’s worth a little extra

1256.  summer Saturdays

1257.  annual Spring Fling

1258.  Mondays

May you find the countless blessings He has given you today ~

~ Sara

Pulling Weeds

One throws piano books.  Another slaps her sister.  I hear a stampede of angry wails from my side of the bathroom door.  I am in the shower while the argument ensues; how to settle a dispute that has no witnesses while the shampoo runs into my eyes?

By the time I was their age my only sibling was an adult, off to college and living on his own.  I have no model to draw from for working through these difficulties.  I feel lost.

I send them to rooms, to beds, to think, pray, calm.  I brush my wet hair and pray myself.

There are so many issues, topics that seem to be suddenly glaring.  Areas in our parenting that are lacking.  Where to begin?

One calms down, another confesses her wrong-doing.  They go out to weed flower beds.  Youngest child proudly presents weeds to be placed in water and displayed.  Agitated from the morning, I take them grumpily, hiding behind a polite smile.  If I’m honest, I don’t want to put weeds on the counter, but I can’t resist her unbridled joy.

And it occurs to me, this is what we’re doing as parents.  Pulling the weeds of sin, working to get the stubborn roots, so that the beautiful flowers that are our children can grow stronger, healthier, more beautiful to the glory of their Creator.

While I’m being honest, it bears mentioning that I hate weeding, loathe yard work.  Which is why the children are outside pulling while I’m inside typing.  And while I can delegate yard work, no one else can do this work in their lives.  While God ultimately directs their paths and who they will become, He has entrusted them to us, their earthly parents, to do this difficult, unending task of pulling the weeds of sin that seek to encroach on the beauty He is creating in them.

And He uses them to expose (often glaringly) and work out the sins in our own hard hearts, the flesh that screams to be made first.

This parenting is a sacred act, making us more like His Son more than almost any other crucible that life gives, if only we will submit to His instruction.  And models aside, He will be faithful to lead me, lead us, as we seek Him daily to show us how to lead them.

 

Random Wednesday – Some Catching Up

Thoughts roll through my head, it’s hard to know where to start.  Every day last week I intended to sit down, to write.  Every day filled up, life too busy to linger long at the keyboard.  And this week, it is Wednesday already, and I finally steal a few moments, but what to write first?

The girls are playing outside, enjoying weather that finally feels like summer.  Swimming began this week and (Hooray!) no one has cried, fussed, or complained.  We have worked this week to restore order to the house, cleaning, laundry-ing, and implementing summer schedules.  After a month of what felt like floundering, it’s good to feel order returning.

Since our trip we have had graduation parties, a ballet recital, and painting at Amania’s house.  Pictures linger on the camera.  Hopefully they’ll come off soon and I’ll share them with you.

Today is June 1.  We can officially begin our adoption paper work today.  Woot!

I have had so many emotions related to our adoption in the past few days, ranging from desperately missing her to being anxious to meet her to wondering if we’re really doing the right thing for everyone involved.  I know all these emotions are normal but, much like a “normal” pregnancy and all it’s ensuing emotions, we still must wrestle through it for ourselves.

I had my last run before the Hospital Hill 10k this morning.  Another woot! fits well here.  I keep telling myself it’s only 6.2 miles, but the hills are notoriously tough.  But we’ve trained and I really believe we’re ready for it.  Now we’re just praying for perfect weather Saturday morning.

The troops in the back yard are getting restless.  Direction is needed, so I must go.  Wishing you a wonderful Wednesday!  Hopefully the next post will include photos.  🙂

~ Sara

Texas Tour, Part III

So, I got up yesterday and planned to post the final installment of our whirlwind trip, but I just couldn’t bring myself to edit any more photos or stare at my computer screen.  But I’m here today to wrap up our series of unfortunate events.  🙂

We had our day in San Antonio on Tuesday.  Late that afternoon we drove to New Braunfels to spend a couple of days with friends there.  We had a truly delightful time with Cory and Whitney and their three kiddos.  On their property is an old German-style cabin with a living room, small kitchenette, bathroom, and bedroom.  It was just about the most charming thing I’ve ever seen.

The city of New Braunfels is apparently quite the safe haven for deer.  They are virtually over-run by them.  And they are extremely bold in how close they will get to you.  New Braunfels/San Antonio were/are in a severe drought and hadn’t had rain in nearly a year (tuck that in the back of your mind, as this detail will be important later).  It seems that this is part of the reason for the boldness of the deer.  Anyway, they were everywhere and would get close enough you could almost feed them by hand.

You can see our cabin in the back ground on the right, for a perspective on how close they would get to people. This photo was taken at the same time as the one above, so Matt was standing on the porch while this deer was in the yard.

So, Tuesday night we just relaxed and enjoyed a wonderful dinner with Cory and Whitney.  I hadn’t laughed that hard or that much in a long time.  On Wednesday, Whitney took us on a tour of local hot spots.  First up was the quaint little town of Gruene.  Like the cabin, I’m not sure when I’ve seen a place more charming.

Matt, busted for abandoning Whitney and myself to seven children in a toy store.

Ellie enjoying a marble maze

We spent the morning strolling through the little town, the girls picked up trinkets at the general store (including Emma’s choice:  a bow and arrow set, complete with bowie knife), and we ate lunch at the Gristmill.  The forecast for the day had been 40% chance of rain (take notes, as once again, this detail will be important later), and we got showered on briefly while dining on the patio at the Gristmill, but other than that, they day was glorious.

That afternoon, Whitney took us all to “the island”.  Apparently, with their property comes access to an private island on the Comal River.  And, once again, it was unlike anything we’d ever seen before.

Riding the golf cart to the island.

At the Comal River

Ellie refused to get in because we didn't bring her floatie ring. Her loss.

Ellie's brief foray into the water.

Grace jumping off the diving board into the river.

Sylvie (Cory & Whitney's daughter)

Emma walked out to the end multiple times but never would jump off. She didn't like the fish swimming under the diving board. No, she doesn't take after her mother at all. (Dont't ask me how I feel about swimming in lake water.)

Rett jumping in.

I was also blessed to get to meet another Facebook / blogging friend in real life.  Abby brought her kids out to the island and we had the chance to meet and visit.  Getting to meet so many people on this trip was definitely one of the highlights!

At some point int he afternoon, the kids found a turtle and decided to build it a home in the sandbox.  I’ve never felt so sorry for a turtle in all my life.

The poor, helpless turtle that the kids tried to "help" for much of the afternoon.

Bridger observing the construction of the turtle habitat.

About half of the kids working on the turtle habitat. They just kept adding more and more water and more and more features.

Wednesday night, as we sat around the table with Cory and Whit, the topic of Sea World came up.  I was lobbying hard for it and Matt was reluctant.  His points were extremely valid – we were all exhausted, it would mean another day added to the trip, it was rather expensive, etc.  My points were that we wouldn’t be this close to a Sea World again for quite a while, the girls had just finished up a year of studying about sea creatures in school, and they had been looking forward to it ever since someone (not me) mentioned at dinner a month before that we would be going to an amusement park.  Ahem.

Thursday morning we got up and the discussions of Sea World began again.  We remained divided on the issue, but eventually Matt caved came around and bought the non-refundable tickets.  We woke the girls up without telling them our plan for the day and immediately began loading up the truck.  Everyone was tired and grouchy but I kept telling myself it would all be fine once we got to Sea World.  Right????

The forecast for the day was a 50% chance of thunderstorms, but we had been seeing that all week, so surely it would be fine.

Because Sea World San Antonio has a water park inside, we put on swim suits and sundresses (Matt didn’t wear a sundress) and the girls couldn’t figure out for the life of them why we were wearing swim suits to drive home.

We managed to get the entire truck packed and girls loaded up by 9 am, with the goal of being to the park by the time the gate opened at 10.  We strapped our luggage on top and re-duct taped the carrier before heading out.  The girls snuggled back in to their pillows and blankets and, I’m guessing, mentally prepared for the long drive home.

It’s worth pointing out here that New Braunfels is about an hour closer to Kansas than Sea World is, so in going to Sea World, we were actually making a longer drive home for ourselves.  But it was going to be worth it!  Oh the memories we were going to make that day!  At least that’s what I kept telling myself.

So we started to head south toward San Antonio.  As we were driving the sky became very ominous, having a distinct green color to it.  Being from Kansas, a green sky typically only means one thing – tornadoes.

We are all very quiet at this point.  I’m starting to feel rather sheepish and silently, fervently, praying that the weather will turn and God will redeem the day.  I can only imagine what Matt is thinking, but I’m confident it’s not very flattering toward me.

The closer we get to Sea World, the worse the weather gets.  First rain starts to fall, then the wind really starts to pick up.  I watch the indoor thermometer on the truck and the outside temperature drops nearly 15 to 20 degrees as we’re driving.  Heavy, heavy rains begin to fall, along with hail.  Whitney is texting us weather updates and finally calls, saying the news is saying tornadoes (what’d I tell you?) and severe weather all morning.  ** heavy sigh**

At this point I suggest pulling off the highway until some of the weather passes because I’m honestly concerned that the wind is going to rip our suitcases right off the top of the vehicle.  But, in keeping with our Griswold theme, we kept right on trucking.

I call the Sea World hotline to discuss the possibility of getting a refund on our tickets.  The woman on the other end is sympathetic but unmovable in regards to their no refunds policy.  Our moods are now about as gloomy as the sky outside.

We pull up to the gate at Sea World a few minutes before the gate is scheduled to open.  A handful of cars have already lined up at the entry.  As 10 o’clock comes and goes, Matt says dryly, “This is starting to look familiar.”

The moment when I was genuinely concerned Matt was going to go "Clark Griswald" on me.

As we wait, we see a couple of school buses come out, full of children.  This is not a good sign.  After a few more minutes, a couple of cars give up and turn back.  A couple of other cars go in through the open Exit gate to see what’s going on.  We follow them.

Inside, the security guard says that Sea World is closed for the day.  Matt said later he contemplated pulling out a water gun and insisting that the guard take us to see Shamu, but he restrained himself.

And so, an hour further from home than when we started, we turned back.  On the one hand, we had done the right thing (in my mind) by the girls and at least tried to go to Sea World.  On the other hand, we were now out more time and a lot of money with nothing to show for it.

We drove silently north, trying to make the best of things.  Once the rain lifted enough that I could actually hear myself think, I made another attempt at calling Sea World.  I told the nice woman our sob story and, eventually, she was able to refund our money.  Thank you, Lord

The whole way home I felt like I was waiting on that last bit of disaster.  The icing on the cake would truly have been for the luggage to blow off the top of my truck.  At this point in the trip, it may have even been funny.  Fortunately, the Lord didn’t see fit to stretch our senses of humor that far and the luggage stayed firmly attached the whole way home.

On the way home, we stopped back in Austin to return beach chairs to our friends that loaned them to us for Port A.  Then we stopped for an early dinner with great friends Dan and Laurie near Dallas and dessert with another family of friends Jamie and Julianne.  At 9:30 on Thursday night, we got into the Sequoia and Matt was finally able to push the “Home” button on the GPS.  At 4:30 Friday morning, we finally pulled into our driveway and dragged ourselves up to our beds.  Home never felt so good.

A lot of things went wrong on our Texas Tour and it would be easy to focus on that.  But we had a wonderful time as well.  Matt got to see friends he hadn’t seen in 20 years; I was able to meet “friends” I only knew through his stories and Facebook.  We spent a lot of time as a family and shared a lot of experiences and, without a doubt, this is a trip we will all remember for a very very long time and I’m truly thankful for every last bit of it.

Oh yeah...we also saw this big guy up close and in person our last night in NB. Wouldn't have missed that for the world! 😉

For God’s Glory ~

~ Sara

Texas Tour, Part II

So we left off our adventure yesterday with horrific sun burns, among other things.  We left Port Aransas a little before lunchtime and headed over to San Antonio.  We gave thanks for the warm temps with intermittent clouds that protected us from the sun.  Grace felt so miserable when we left the condo that she couldn’t bring herself to change out of her pajamas into regular clothes.  Not thinking, I threw all of her clothes into the suitcase and then handed it to Matt to strap to the truck in our now red-neck car top carrier.  So, upon arrival in San Antonio, poor Matt had to drag that monster of a suitcase back down so she could change.  I got the award that day for thinking ahead.  😉

Feeling the way we did, our goal was to keep it low-key and still have a good time.  We strolled the River Walk and checked out the Alamo.  And, of course, ate mexican food.  That was about all any one was up for on Tuesday.

San Antonio appeared to be a beautiful city.  The River Walk was gorgeous and would be such fun for a couples get away and the Alamo was everything I’d heard about it – cool, but not much to it.  There appeared to be a ton of things to do in SA if one were to spend more than six hours there.  Sadly, we were ready to keep moving on our trip.

Still, good times were had and more memories were made.  And fortunately we made it through Tuesday without incident!  Woo hoo!

Grace "feeling the burn", so to speak.

I don't even know what this face is about.

A smiley one!

Emma enjoying her lunch.

River Walk

Another spot along the river.

Ice cream!

Maybe she thinks I'm going to steal her cone?

Of course she picked the "Krazy Kolors" flavor. I love the spot of ice cream on her nose.

The Alamo

Reading up

Matt felt like we should document the fact that I was, in fact, on this trip.

While taking the previous picture, a man walked by and offered to take a photo of all of us. Props to him for actually getting my manual lens to focus!

Relaxing when we couldn't walk any more.

While San Antonio probably could have been more fun had we all felt better, we made the most of it and made more memories.

Up next, a couple of refreshing, relaxing days with friends and more unfortunate events.  🙂

Happy Wednesday, friends!

~ Sara